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  I push with my hand wrapped around my cock. Her pussy relaxes, taking me in. Her gasps get faster. I go slowly, working myself in a little at a time.

  She can handle me fine.

  I let my cock go, then I’m buried all the way. The hot, wet clutch of her cunt grips me, and suddenly, I’m the one at risk of bursting into tears.

  I clench a fist of the pillow by her face and hold perfectly fucking still.

  But I’m so damn deep.

  She’s opened her thighs wide, letting me have it all. So, damn wet. Her slickness slides where my balls press to her ass.

  I drag myself out and thrust back in.

  Her arms go limp, as though she just got knocked out. Her eyelids dip, pleasure streaking into her expression, making me growl. I give her another long slow stroke. The tension gathers in my balls and spreads in my guts. I’m not going to last long, but that’s all right—not letting her come this round, anyhow. I move faster, her pussy open enough for me to fuck her properly now. And I do—giving her a thrust that drives her whole body upward and bumps the top of her head into the iron frame.

  I don’t shelter her from the knock. Let her take it a bit hard. Let it smart a little.

  She has this coming.

  The tension spreads in a hot wave that moves up into my chest. I won’t kiss her, but I keep my gaze locked on hers. Her face flushes—overwhelmed. Want to see every bit of how she’s feeling while I do this to her. Going to watch her get so close and then withhold the release she’s desperate for.

  Give her a taste of the hell I’ve been living.

  Her breaths kick fast against my mouth.

  The sound of her gasping inhalations wraps around me. Makes my balls contract.

  Her pussy’s clenching. She’s about to come. The greedy little thing, without me even touching her clit. She’ll have to wait. Don’t want her distracted from what I’m doing to her just yet. She needs to feel me inside her. Have me come in her and know she’s owned. Then I’ll pleasure her. Let her get lost in her own body. For now, she’s going to be totally and completely zoned in on mine.

  I lean up between her spread thighs, pushing the left one wider with my palm, then look at her taking me. Her pink, shiny flesh is stretched to capacity, sucking me in. Her arousal is a sopping mess all over my cock and balls. I thrust hard, and the pleasure sweeps me up in a euphoric thrall.

  I see her behind my eyelids, taking over my mind while my body seizes, and I erupt. Bliss ruptures my insides, spreading pleasure to my marrow. My semen blasts out of me, and I grind deeper. Deep as I can. Her little whimper reaches me, and I somehow find I’ve got even more stored up to fill her with. The bliss breaks. I suck air into burning lungs. My fingers dig in her fleshy inner thigh. I’ve marked her with fingerprints she’ll carry for days.

  I collapse over her, not moving my cock a fraction out of her warmth. It’s home where it belongs. The fresh, apple scent of her shampoo washes over me. I bury my face in her neck and breathe her deep. Tattoo this scent in my lungs so I never forget.

  Her breaths even.

  When I pull back, there’s no avoiding her teary gaze.

  There’s no not kissing her.

  I press my mouth to hers. Hold like that, feeling her teeth through her lips, and can’t move. The feeling’s too much—six months of waiting for that.

  Then her lips part, and she’s the one kissing me.

  Moving her mouth against mine.

  Her wicked tongue that snakes out and mother-fucking licks me.

  I growl. She has me right back to square one. My cock stiffening in her cunt. I kiss her back completely inelegantly, knowing I’m using too much tongue. But once I’m in her minty mouth, there’s no restraint I can hold on to.

  I rock my hips. Her mouth opens wider. She catches my tongue and sucks it. A hot shiver rattles my control. I get so hard, the tension so tight, that she’ll have me blowing a second load before she even gets her turn.

  She wraps her legs around my waist, her heels digging into my back, coaxing me deeper into her horny little pussy.

  A groan floods me. Now she’s going to get it. Really get it. I pry her insistent thighs from my sides. She struggles for the first time, twisting her hips and jerking her legs, fighting to get them back around me.

  For that, I break the kiss and pull out.

  She pants, heavy tits bouncing. I can’t help myself and grab them both, sucking first one hard nipple then the other. She moans sharply. Her hips buck against my cock sandwiched against her pelvis. Stopping is the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

  She’ll get off when I decide.

  I flip her onto her side. Her arms cross above her head. I slam my palm against her plump ass. The slap rings crisply through the room.

  She bites back a yelp, but I catch the beginning of the sound.

  “Behave.” I remind her and yank her legs apart so the top one bends like when she was sleeping, but with her ass more exposed to me, so I can get to her cunt. She’s twisted, lower body face down, and top half of her body sideways. My handprint is a bright-red welt on her ass. Makes it so much hotter to see that while I’m about to fuck her while she’s this helpless.

  I maneuver against her and grab the ass-cheek baring my mark and stretch it wide. Her tight, little, puckered asshole catches my attention, but it’ll have to wait for another time. Now it’s all about pussy.

  I pull her ass wider. Her little snatch is soaked with my semen. The vision almost robs me of more. My balls get heavier. I shove myself inside her. Taking her is so easy this time, there’s hardly any resistance at all. I hold her hip down and take her roughly. There’s no quietening the squeak of the mattress or the shudder of the bedframe. Her shoulders pull taut against the restraint, and the sight of her stretched like this is one I’ll hold on to forever. The image of her bouncing tits and her forehead wrinkled in a need that’s borderline pain.

  I lay myself on her, our legs tangled, and literally fuck her sideways. She turns her face toward me, her neck craning. I plunge my hand into the mass of her hair and grip—pulling her deep into my kiss. Her mouth opens helplessly. She’s got no control left for tricks. I feel her desperation in her lips. In the way she surrenders to me.

  My poor little tease is trying so hard to behave, and it’s time to reward her effort.

  But I can’t stop kissing her. Her mouth is paradise. The scent of her drugs my lungs. Intoxicating.

  I find the will to ease off her and roll her onto her back again. Lift her up higher on the pillow, so her arms have some slack, and her shoulders aren’t so strained. Then put a spare pillow between her head and the iron frame to cushion her.

  Then return between her legs where I belong. I place my hand on her pussy while I work myself in. Thumb on her clit. Moans melt from her, twisting into me, making me desperate for something that has nothing to do with taking her beautiful body. I’m moving again but spread her lips and look at the eager, swollen clit I’m massaging.

  Holy shit. My pulse rages. Everything about her is irresistible. What’d I do right in a past life to be rewarded like this?

  When we’re finished, I’m going to eat her lovely pussy for an hour.

  Her hips rock. She’s getting close. I let go of her clit. The sound she makes is half sob. She’s going to come all right, but I have other ideas as to how.

  I push her thighs up and go into her at a deeper angle. Until I’m balls deep on a spot that has her eyes rolling back. It only takes three hard fucks, then her pussy starts clamping. I withdraw far enough to grab my length and jerk the head of my cock fast at her entrance.

  She seizes. Her lips pull back from her teeth, jaw locked against the screams she’s suppressing. She jerks like my dick is a fucking cattle prod and comes violently—her legs twitching. The flood of her satisfaction covers my cock. She’s not a theatrical squirter, but her little gush makes me feel like a goddamn wizard king. I shove my dick back into her and lose myself to the warm acceptance of the only woman I
’ve ever loved.

  Chapter Three

  I reach up and undo the belt, freeing her. She rolls toward me. Time to face the music. Time for what I’ve been terrified of.

  “Matty,” she whispers. Now, I don’t dare beg her not to cry. “How could you do this to me?”

  My chest compresses under the weight of what I’ve done.

  She’s not even talking about me buckling her to our bed and brutalizing her.

  That’s the thing about my wife—she’s as wholesome as her award-winning, homemade apple pie. Everyone’s sweetheart. Darling of every church bake sale. My little pocket-rocket. Butter wouldn’t melt on her sweet pink tongue.

  By day.

  By night, she’s five-foot of pure hussy. Takes her six-foot-seven, rough husband anyway, anywhere—and fucking loves every filthy moment of it.

  I grab her face and swipe away her tears with my thumbs. When it comes down to it, I’m not much good at talking or explaining. But she knows me.

  She’s known me since kindergarten.

  Libby knows I’m hurting worse than she is. That this last deployment almost killed me, both literally and figuratively.

  “How could you keep this from me?” Her tears collect on my thumbs, and each one is a knife in my middle.

  My brave Libby never cries. Not when I leave her, and not when I get back. She sends me off with a kiss and welcomes me home with many more. She keeps her worries for her prayers.

  She knows I’d never have the strength to go, otherwise.

  This time has been different.

  What I’ve been trying not to imagine is right here in her eyes. Her lips work together over and over, and I see everything she’s been going through in the last month. Since she got the call no wife ever wants to get—her husband’s been injured in the line of duty. On a mission where she couldn’t even be told what happened or what country I was in.

  “Wasn’t supposed to get clearance to fly.” I tuck her hair behind her ear. Want to see all of her face, even when it’s this sad.

  “How did you?” She keeps her gaze locked on mine, and her arm draped over my waist, even though there’s somewhere else she wants to be looking.

  No, I wasn’t supposed to get medical clearance to fly. Was told I’d have to miss another Christmas at home.

  But then I wasn’t supposed to be up and walking unaided five days after surgery, either. They thought that was impossible. But they couldn’t understand the treasures I have motivating me to heal. One thing I’ve learned in my years of service is that human will is stronger than the body.

  “I had something to come home to, I needed to recover for.”

  Her eyes shut briefly, and then she does what she’s been avoiding. She leans back and looks at the angry scars on my hip. The stitches are out, and the wound’s healed, but it’s not pretty.

  “Oh, Matthew.” She bursts into sobs and buries her face in my chest.

  I wrap her up in my arms and hold her close. She’s not crying over battle scars.

  She’s crying over how close we came to our last kiss goodbye.

  I squeeze my eyes closed and rub my nose in her hair—sniffing her the way I always do, just in case I don’t get any more chances to breathe her in.

  Her sobs rattle me. I clench the hair at the back of her head in my hand and clutch her tighter. Until the hurt buzzing between us subsides.

  Her breathing evens, and she draws back to look at me again.

  She touches my cheek. Then smiles the smile I’ve been dreaming of for six months, straight. “How in the world did you manage to fuck me like that with a brand new, artificial hip?”

  “Baby girl.” I palm her luscious ass in my hand. “I’d still manage to fuck you like that with no hips.”

  “I believe you.” Her sultry chuckle snakes into my heart. She sniffs then sighs, stroking my cheek. Expression so soft. “Superman.”

  I take her fingers from my face and hold them. “Supergirl.”

  Her fingers link with mine, and our wedding bands knock together.

  A lump grows in my throat. I’ve seen horrific shit people would never believe, but this right here—her pale fingers linked with mine—this slays me every goddamn time.

  “I can’t believe you managed this.” Her smile gets deeper. “Is everyone in on it?”

  I’d do anything to see that smile, and I’ve got many gifts still up my sleeve for her to make more smiles happen. Her parents came to stay at our new place for a big family Christmas, but being home was only part of the plan.

  “Pretty much.” Both our parents helped me surprise her. “Well, in on most of it.” I raise a brow then roll to the edge of the bed and tug a folded bit of paper from the pocket of the abandoned pants on the floor, then hand it to her.

  She unfolds the worn paper.

  “I waited outside for hours until everyone was asleep.”

  She reads the paper, and her eyes flash. It’s my favorite of her letters. I’ve read it more than a dozen times. Imagined it over and over again. Had visions of it possess my imagination.

  It’s tormented me.

  “Dear Matty, last night, I dreamed I woke up to you fucking me senseless. I wasn’t even ready, but you stretched me open and made me take it—”

  Her lower lip catches between her teeth, but she doesn’t even have the decency to blush—my dirty, little, fucking tease.

  She writes me a letter every single day I’m away, no matter what. Depending on the mission, sometimes I get a months’ worth at once. Those off-the-grid missions are the ones where her letters save my mind. She never talks about when she’s lonely and hurting for me. Libby would never burden me that way. But I feel it. The way she’s hurting. It’s in the dirty letters. In the things she says I’m doing to her in them. Rougher stuff than we’d do in life. I feel the desperation there. Because I hurt for her that way, too.

  She shields me from those things, just like I shield her from the names of buddies I’ve left behind. Protecting her from imagining my name on some list along with theirs.

  “Matty…” she whispers, and her horny little gaze meets mine.

  Don’t think she even remembered this one. She’s written me many filthy little tales to entertain me.

  A cry rings out down the hall. She sits bolt upright then leaps out of bed, tugs on a robe, and heads for the door.

  I know exactly what she’s doing, and I’m out of the bed in an instant, too. Not following after her, though. I go to the drawers and find boxer shorts to put on and then back myself against the wall.

  Oh, shit.

  My mouth goes dry—like the times I’ve been dehydrated in an actual desert, dry. I scrub my face, which feels odd after so long with a beard. But when my parents collected me from the airport, Mom wouldn’t allow me home to Libby without a shave. That woman is my wife’s number one fan.

  After me.

  Her footsteps pad back into the room, and the door clicks closed behind her. I bend over to get in a breath, then straighten but can’t bring myself to look.

  Holy shit.

  My heart’s a riot under my ribs. Faster than it’s ever been in a war zone. The sound of someone else’s breathing joins ours, and this one is louder and more boisterous. Hiccupy little gasps.

  What if he’s afraid of me?

  “Look who’s here, Ollie.” Libby’s voice is the special, sweet tone she saves just for our son.

  He can’t possibly remember me. He was six weeks old when I left. My throat gets thick. Holy shit. My baby son is about to be reintroduced to his father as a terrifying, six-foot-seven, scarred mess.

  “Dada.”

  My gaze snaps up to the most adorable little boy in the whole fucking world. Too much brown hair like I had as a baby and his Mama’s dimple. “He knows me?”

  I can’t believe it, and I can’t reach for him. Oliver said my name, but he’s snuggled into his mother’s chest, chewing on a slobbery fist.

  “Of course he does.” Her eyes get this worri
ed squint. Don’t think she expected I’d be nervous to see him. “We say our prayers with your picture every night. He won’t sleep until we’ve said goodnight to Daddy.”

  I scrub my face again and inch closer.

  “He’s teething.” She rubs his back and sways toward me. “Poor bubba’s gums wake him up.”

  I stop in front of them. His eyes focus on me, his fist working in his mouth. He’s watching but cautious, just like I am.

  Libby, though, she might be kind, but she suffers no nonsense. “Go to Daddy. Mummy will get your medicine.”

  She deposits the seven and a half month old into my arms and leaves the room.

  Abandons me with absolutely no idea what to do with a teething infant.

  She’s ruthless.

  Drool trickles onto my collarbone. He’s so, so warm. I press my nose to the top of his head. Three fast gasps tug in then out of me. The closest I’ll get to letting myself cry in front of my son. She uses some kind of special baby detergent on Ollie’s clothes. He smells just like he did when he was six weeks old, and I breathed in his baby scent and didn’t know how the fuck I’d make myself go.

  I sit on the bed and lean back on the frame. Then look at him properly. His long lashes fan over bright-hazel eyes. I brush his cheek with my fingertip, and my heart melts all over again for him. Can’t believe he’s so relaxed with me.

  “Mama,” he says with a mouth full of hand.

  A chuckle rumbles me. “I know, bud. Your mama. I like waking her up all night, too.”

  He blinks and sucks his fist, then pulls it out fast with an impressive pop of suction. His eyes widen, and he glances at his fist. Then cracks a big, gummy smile and giggles.

  A laugh splits me.

  He stares at his fist and laughs—really laughs. A hysterical, hiccupy belly laugh that makes his head bob.

  The contagious sound and sight wrap around me, and I’m joining him, my laughs bouncing his whole body.

  His nose scrunches, and his one half-tooth flashes.

  Christ, do babies really laugh wholeheartedly like this, or is mine special?

  “Is Daddy exciting you at bedtime?” Libby approaches, holding a small tube. She grins and shakes her head. “I knew it’d be trouble with two boys against one poor girl.”